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  <title>help i'm alive</title>
  <subtitle>my regrets are few</subtitle>
  <author>
    <email>katlady186@aol.com</email>
    <name>my regrets are few</name>
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  <updated>2009-12-05T23:42:47Z</updated>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:184558</id>
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    <title>but someday baby, you ain't worry my life anymore</title>
    <published>2009-12-05T23:42:14Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-05T23:42:14Z</updated>
    <category term="computer woes"/>
    <lj:music>clutch - electric worry</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Talked to Dell tech support today (thanks, guy!Francis) and it seems I need my motherboard replaced.  Should hear from the parts guy on Tuesday-ish.  Until then, I'm rocking my old ghetto laptop &lt;strike&gt;and planning my new laptop purchase for January.  I am tired of being snakebit and having to baby Stark's fan anyway.  Anyone have some thoughts on the Inspiron?&lt;/strike&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hopefully will have Stark up and running by the end of this week, which will mean more Star Trek capping (and possibly even a new layout) along with some overdue pimp posts.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(God do I miss the scroll strip on my other touch pad.)</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:184168</id>
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    <title>i have no mouth and i want to scream...</title>
    <published>2009-12-05T04:33:45Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-05T23:42:47Z</updated>
    <category term="wailing and gnashing of teeth"/>
    <category term="is it december 15 yet"/>
    <category term="the universe hates me"/>
    <category term="computer woes"/>
    <category term="wtf"/>
    <lj:music>aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So here I am, minding my own business and settling down for what I thought would be a nice relaxing evening working on Star Trek screencaps and eventual iconnage, when suddenly my laptop goes &lt;i&gt;sput&lt;/i&gt; and turns off.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And won't come back on.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(And I'm not kidding, it did make that noise.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So yeah, trying not to panic here.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(I think it might have something to do with the cooling fan; out of the blue over the last couple days, I thought I'd noticed a faint clicking sound when the fan came on, but I had no other symptoms so I thought it was okay and then tonight out of nowhere it just shuts the fuck off and ARE YOU CONSPIRING AGAINST ME UNIVERSE?  BECAUSE I'M STARTING TO TAKE THIS SHIT PERSONALLY.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And I was going to work on those smut prompts tonight.  Dammit.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(Oh, and if you're wondering how I'm making this post, it's from my old college laptop which--despite being behind on her updates and having a cracked hinge and needing a good dusting--will still limp along for me in times of need.)</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:183881</id>
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    <title>don't struggle like that or i will only love you more...</title>
    <published>2009-12-01T04:51:35Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-01T04:51:35Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="is it december 15 yet"/>
    <category term="gainful employment"/>
    <lj:music>editors - lullaby</lj:music>
    <content type="html">It's official.  Work is going to be goddamn insane until December 15.  Expect frothing at the mouth, nervous tics, and caffeine overdoses.  30 Seconds to Mars' new album next week is going to be my 'halfway mark' present to myself.  Until then, I need smaller benchmarks.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yoinked from &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_ceitfianna' lj:user='ceitfianna' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://ceitfianna.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://ceitfianna.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;ceitfianna&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Give me a pairing and a word/color/lyric/location/kink or cliche and I will write you at least 100 words of smut. You heard me.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Because nothing cures your ills like porn.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:183684</id>
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    <title>had this been an actual emergency...</title>
    <published>2009-11-25T06:29:48Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-25T06:29:48Z</updated>
    <category term="psa"/>
    <category term="y r u afk"/>
    <content type="html">Heads up, y'all.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm getting up early tomorrow (today?) and hopping in the car to go visit the kinfolk for Thanksgiving.  This means I'll be whoring off the neighbors' wireless while I'm there, but I should be able to tag in at least once a day.  We start heading back homeward on Saturday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Enjoy your turkey/prime rib/pork loin/turducken/meat substitute!</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:183514</id>
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    <title>and at night, we walk into our houses and burn...</title>
    <published>2009-11-16T04:58:48Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-24T02:21:15Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="symptoms and cures"/>
    <lj:music>dar williams - iowa</lj:music>
    <content type="html">&lt;strike&gt;Stolen like a luxury car&lt;/strike&gt; Inspired by &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_doihearawaltz' lj:user='doihearawaltz' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://doihearawaltz.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://doihearawaltz.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;doihearawaltz&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;, and because it's been six days since my last meme...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1.  Pick a prompt.&lt;br /&gt;2.  Pick a character/pairing.&lt;br /&gt;3.  ????&lt;br /&gt;4.  PROFIT!  (Or in this case, DRABBLE!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1.  get whatever I need&lt;br /&gt;2.  show some leg&lt;br /&gt;3.  a messenger&lt;br /&gt;4.  too close&lt;br /&gt;5.  passing through&lt;br /&gt;6.  thou art fair&lt;br /&gt;7.  devil in a blue dress&lt;br /&gt;8.  too pretty for days like this&lt;br /&gt;9.  fade to red&lt;br /&gt;10. oral fixation&lt;br /&gt;11. too far out all my life&lt;br /&gt;12. in the king's privy council&lt;br /&gt;13. defy discordia&lt;br /&gt;14. one of those days all week&lt;br /&gt;15. speaker for the dead&lt;br /&gt;16. queen of infinite space&lt;br /&gt;17. never a bride&lt;br /&gt;18. when you were young&lt;br /&gt;19. greatness begins tomorrow&lt;br /&gt;20. finger on the trigger&lt;br /&gt;21. affair of the necklace&lt;br /&gt;22. pin-up girl&lt;br /&gt;23. I will let you do nothing&lt;br /&gt;24. too bright to see&lt;br /&gt;25. if I tremble</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:183153</id>
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    <title>public service announcement...</title>
    <published>2009-11-15T06:28:43Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-15T06:29:00Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <content type="html">The answers to &lt;a href="http://walksbyherself.livejournal.com/182682.html"&gt;the book meme&lt;/a&gt; are now up for your reading pleasure.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:182807</id>
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    <title>lips are for biting here...</title>
    <published>2009-11-10T03:14:58Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-10T03:17:33Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="music pimp"/>
    <category term="movies"/>
    <category term="lucidity"/>
    <category term="video games"/>
    <category term="youtube"/>
    <category term="symptoms and cures"/>
    <lj:music>good with grenades - bruises and bitemarks</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Things I wish to share!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- &lt;a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8EA7EbFX4k"&gt;Trailer for Prince of Persia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- My thoughts on the above, to Mr. Bruckheimer et al: PLEASE DON'T SUCK.  I played the PoP game you based this film on to the point of insanity.  My mother got addicted to watching me play and was my loyal backseat driver for a huge chunk of it.  This game &lt;i&gt;is&lt;/i&gt; my high school years.  Looks like you've fed the story some steroids, which is fine, because it looks like you've got the visuals to back it up.  So you changed the princess's name for no reason, your "Persian" prince is white like wonderbread and everyone speaks the king's English.  You preserved the witty banter and the crazy parkour platforming.  JUST PLEASE DON'T SUCK.  (Also, did he seriously say "a-sand-ssins"?  Say no, Mr. Bruckheimer.  Say no.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Songs!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/rqny3yyv3p"&gt;Muse - Uprising&lt;/a&gt; : in my head, this is a fantastic fanvid for Star Trek XI.  Who's with me?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/v93vsngb5l"&gt;Florence and the Machine - Drumming Song&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(as I move my feet towards your body/I can hear this beat, it fills my head up/and gets louder and louder)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/zkpzt87k2y"&gt;Florence and the Machine - Hardest of Hearts&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(there is love in your body but you can't get it out/it gets stuck in your head, won't come out of your mouth/sticks to your tongue and shows on your face/that the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Finally, a meme!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Pick a pairing from my fandoms (including whatever RP 'verse you care to throw at me), and come up with a location and/or situation, and I will write you between 50 and 250 words about the kiss that happened in that context.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I adored this one when I did it a year ago; gimme prompts, people!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Pea Ess : New favorite song lyric.  "I'm tryin' to find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful."</content>
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    <title>it's not a dream anymore...</title>
    <published>2009-11-08T21:53:34Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-15T06:26:57Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="books"/>
    <lj:music>paramore - looking up</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Stolen shamelessly from &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_lienne' lj:user='lienne' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://lienne.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://lienne.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;lienne&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Take &lt;strike&gt;four&lt;/strike&gt; I LIKE TEN books off your bookshelf.&lt;br /&gt;- Write the first sentence&lt;br /&gt;- Write the last sentence on page fifty&lt;br /&gt;- Write the second sentence on page one hundred&lt;br /&gt;- Write the next to the last sentence on page one hundred fifty&lt;br /&gt;- Write the final sentence of the book&lt;br /&gt;- Let your friends guess what book it is.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;One&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;Captain Alatriste by Arturo Perez-Reverte&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; He was not the most honest or pious of men, but he was courageous.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; "My faith!  What a great truth, that is," he replies, still amused, and winking at me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt;  The count went to him, and Diego Alatriste heard them exchange a few words in low voices.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt;  "It may have been because although the man was facing death, he asked for mercy for his companion, not himself."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; And through the rain, I heard his laughter growing faint in the distance.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Two&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;Scar Night by Alan Campbell&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; Chains snarled the courtyard behind the derelict cannon foundry in Applecross: spears of chain radiating at every angle, secured into walls with rusted hooks and pins, and knitted together like a madwoman's puzzle.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; Sypes set down his feather and creaked himself forward to peer into the eyepiece of the aurolethiscope, and for a sinful moment Fogwill wondered if the sound had come from the chair or from his master's aged bones.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; Ichin Tell then muttered blessings while the first temple guard opened the Sinners' Well--a shaft through the killing stage into the abyss below--ready to receive the body after the soul had been redeemed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; "Happens to me all the time."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; "Iril...," he began.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Three&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;The Lost Fleet: Dauntless by Jack Campbell&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; The cold air blowing in through the vents still carried a faint tang of overheated metal and burned equipment.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; Trade at least a ship for a ship.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; "It must've sent a report to the base."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; "We've sighted major elements of the Syndic fleet exiting the jump point."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; "Eventually, I'm going to take this fleet home, no matter who or what stands in the way."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Four&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;Elantris by Brandon Sanderson&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; Elantris was beautiful, once.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; "How did you ever find this place?" Raoden asked eagerly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; The children led her to a massive set of stone stairs that ran up the side of the outer wall. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; Most importantly, everything he said about Iadon was true.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; "...He was our savior."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Five&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; It happened every year, was almost a ritual.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; He began studying to be a journalist in Stockholm when he was twenty-one, but interrupted his studies after the first year to do his military service as a rifleman in Kiruna in Lapland.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; They worked at it for three months.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt;  The group consisted of about thirty available individuals, men and women of varying ages.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; She tossed Elvis into a dumpster.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Six&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; The comet's tail spread across the dawn, a red slash that bled above the crags of Dragonstone like a wound in the pink and purple sky.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; "Your brother Jaime keeps losing battles."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; Even Sam--his father's House was sworn to Highgarden, whose Lord Tyrell supported King Renly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; "When did you grow so devout?" Davos said.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; I'm not dead either.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Seven&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;Farthing by Jo Walton&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; It started when David came in from the lawn absolutely furious.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; "I'll need his will, if any, to see who benefits."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; "Aren't you playing in exalted company!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; He made a tick against something on one of his piles of notes.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; Carmichael waved once to the child and walked away up the dirty London street.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Eight&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;The Traveler by John Twelve Hawks&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; Maya reached out and took her father's hand as they walked from the Underground to the light.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; Santa Monica Canyon was an enclave of expensive houses built on a two-lane road that lead down to the beach.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; Four surveillance cameras were hidden in the guest suite.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; The roof of another building was six feet across the alleyway, one floor lower than where they were trapped.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; The flock of seabirds was resting on the beach and, as the Traveler approached them, they rose up to heaven, keening and calling to each other.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Nine&lt;/b&gt; &lt;i&gt;The Glass Books of the Dream Eaters (Volume One) by Gordon Dahlquist&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; From her arrival at the docks to the appearance of Roger's letter, written on crisp Ministry paper and signed with his full name, on her maid's silver tray at breakfast, three months had passed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; Miss Temple decided that whoever laid out the house was unhealthily fixated with length.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; The more he worried over the events of the previous day and night, the more he berated himself for impulsive nonsense--all the more now that there was no announcement of Trapping's death.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt; He crawled gracelessly onto the floor of a dark room, and pulled the window closed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; Black night above and around him, mocked by a chilling wind, Doctor Svenson looked helplessly at the impossibly distant gondola and began to climb, hand over bloodied hand, gasping, sobbing, all the terrors of hell screaming below his feet, his eyes now screwed shut in agony.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;strike&gt;&lt;b&gt;Ten&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/strike&gt; &lt;b&gt;SOLVED&lt;/b&gt; &lt;u&gt;Starship Troopers&lt;/u&gt; by Robert Heinlein&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;First:&lt;/i&gt; I always get the shakes before a drop.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Last on 50:&lt;/i&gt; "They reproduce by fission...like all bacteria."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second on 100:&lt;/i&gt; Maybe they'll be able to do without us someday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Second to last on 150:&lt;/i&gt;  So it did go on, for a long, tedious, painful time.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Final:&lt;/i&gt; She switched it on: "To the everlasting glory of the Infantry--"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Go to town, kids.  Will let this run until about Wednesday or so and then will start revealing titles one at a time.</content>
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    <title>i'm licking my wounds, i'll shut my eyes...</title>
    <published>2009-11-08T04:54:51Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-08T23:33:29Z</updated>
    <category term="random shit"/>
    <category term="milliways"/>
    <category term="cosplay"/>
    <category term="real life"/>
    <lj:music>gyroscope - weapon. enemy. friend</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Random post is random!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So...who thinks Mary Anne should come down with the flu and &lt;a href="http://www.megavideo.com/?v=5G3DQ0NY"&gt;become convinced she's chosen by God to save France?&lt;/a&gt;  I have Fun Ideas involving illness versus tarot powers.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Am working on getting caught up on tags.  Made the mistake of sleeping in my contacts last night which left me with ridonkulous light sensitivity for most of the day.  Watched movies with a blanket over my head.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Pretty sure I've come up with my most ambitious cosplay idea to date.  It's not something I'd be able to do in the coming year, maybe for the year after, because it's going to be architectural as much as sewing and will involve armor and all kinds of crazy shit.  But as far as I know, nobody's done it before and that needs to change.  Plus I picked up canon again this week and remembered just how much I love the character.  (Vague Kat is vague!  XD  But you're welcome to try and guess.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Um...those are all my thoughts for now, but there's always a decent chance for music later.  Peace out, kids.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:182101</id>
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    <title>the transmissions will resume...</title>
    <published>2009-11-05T02:40:15Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-05T02:40:15Z</updated>
    <category term="this is a small post"/>
    <category term="wtf lj"/>
    <lj:music>muse - uprising</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Question: anyone else have some issues with lj notifs lately?  Because I just saw one tag I know I never got notif'd for and now I am paranoid there may be others.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If there's anything you think I didn't see, tag here!  Or just tag here because you love me!</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:181880</id>
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    <title>shore up the crucifixes...</title>
    <published>2009-10-31T22:00:51Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-31T22:00:51Z</updated>
    <category term="recs"/>
    <category term="music pimp"/>
    <lj:music>the mountain goats - magpie</lj:music>
    <content type="html">In honor of Halloween, I thought I'd share with y'all some music and good old fashioned creepy fanfic recs.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/p99im9ydpu"&gt;Neko Case - Furnace Room Lullaby&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(i twisted you under and under to break you/i just couldn't breathe with your throne on my chest)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/jegjhe1o2l"&gt;People in Planes - Vampire&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(who is the spy in your campaign?/is it the wife or is it your advisor?/I wanna suck the blood from their veins)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/vqk69deek3"&gt;That Handsome Devil - Viva Discordia&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(life, it ain't all roses, though/you go where you're supposed to go/woke up in a mobile home/her kidney sold in Tokyo)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/mcoi4i07ss"&gt;Jen Titus - O Death&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(no wealth, no ruin, no silver, no gold/nothing satisfies me but your soul)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/imqmpfhttq"&gt;Sufjan Stevens - The Seer's Tower&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(still I go to the deepest grave/where I go to sleep alone)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The fic recs (which, oddly enough, are all Star Trek reboot)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://vega-writes.livejournal.com/8726.html"&gt;Name the Stars&lt;/a&gt; : a horror-love story &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink_meme/330.html?thread=929098#t929098"&gt;Untitled&lt;/a&gt; : a &lt;font color="blue"&gt;House&lt;/font&gt; of Leaves drabble&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://tristesses.livejournal.com/26652.html"&gt;Divinity Defined by Echo&lt;/a&gt; : a longer exploration of the &lt;font color="blue"&gt;house&lt;/font&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And now I'm really tempted to haul my own copy of &lt;font color="blue"&gt;House&lt;/font&gt; of Leaves off the shelf.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:181582</id>
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    <title>sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell...</title>
    <published>2009-10-29T04:24:18Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-29T04:24:18Z</updated>
    <category term="music pimp"/>
    <lj:music>florence and the machine - drumming song</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Floreeeeence!  Why are you so awesome?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpLXQorSQe8"&gt;I'd embed this fucker, but they took out the embed code.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I can't even begin to articulate all the things I love about this song, and the video floors me.  THE DRUMS.  The way the motion just gets more and more frenetic, how she starts dancing with her whole body.  Florence just being goddamn gorgeous.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;strike&gt;And this may be my new contender for Kite!karaoke, I KNOW I KEEP CHANGING MY MIND BUT GODDAMN FLORENCE TOO AWESOME.&lt;/strike&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lyrics are &lt;a href="http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858777396/"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt; if you want to take a look.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:181465</id>
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    <title>and i'm saving the world at eight...</title>
    <published>2009-10-26T04:38:19Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-26T04:38:19Z</updated>
    <category term="random shit"/>
    <category term="srs writer"/>
    <lj:music>elbow - an audience with the pope</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Been on a very random writing binge lately.  Still plugging away at prompts for the kink meme, got sucked into a Sleeping-Beauty-inspired M_M crossover, and I must have been spending too much time on &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_issenterprise' lj:user='issenterprise' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/issenterprise/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif' alt='[info]' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/issenterprise/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;issenterprise&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt; because now I've also got the makings of a Mirrorverse AU/M_M crossover and ooooh it's so fucked up but I'm writing it all the same and we'll see if it ever gets posted.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Also curious as to the workplace's policy on Halloween.  Not sure what I'll wear if they're cool with it since pretty much all of my costumes are either sexually inappropriate, ones no one would get, or ones no one would get &lt;i&gt;and&lt;/i&gt; sexually inappropriate.  Maybe I'll just wear a lot of black and my vampire fangs. Hm...</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:181109</id>
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    <title>it's bad to do what's easy just 'cause it's easy...</title>
    <published>2009-10-19T01:50:23Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-19T01:50:23Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <lj:music>gregory and the hawk - oats we sow</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Swiped from God and everybody:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;i&gt;Pick a character/make up a pairing from &lt;strike&gt;the list below&lt;/strike&gt; your braaaaains, and give me some kind of prompt (a line of poetry, a lyric, one word, a kink or cliche), and I will attempt at least 100 words of fic for you.&lt;/i&gt;</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:180884</id>
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    <title>i'm not gonna teach him how to dance with you...</title>
    <published>2009-10-14T04:56:19Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-14T04:56:19Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="picspam"/>
    <lj:music>black kids - i'm not gonna teach your boyfriend how to dance with you</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Stolen shamelessly from Rog: &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;i&gt;(1) List 10 celebrities you'd bang without even asking questions&lt;br /&gt;    (2) Put all of them in order (10-1, 1 is the hottest)&lt;br /&gt;    (3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you&lt;br /&gt;    (4) Supply photos for said people&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3518/4010744904_c75556c327.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;10. Jeremy Irons: Can't recall first thing I saw him in, but OOOH that voice.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2661/4010004259_636d343037.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;9. Micha Collins: Why yes, I am a Castiel fangirl.  Because it takes something special to be God's little tax accountant and a complete dork.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2593/4010000303_0be1014861.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;8. Jamie Bamber: Saw him first in the Horatio Hornblower miniseries on A&amp;E and was floored by him in BSG.  In the immortal words of Richard Hatch, "Oh frak it, let's make love now!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2473/4010010935_366c1b274d.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;7. Damian Lewis: Band of Brothers. Forsyte Saga.  Life.  The Escapist.  Hell, I even watched that shitty Alex Rider movie for this man.  THAT IS DEVOTION.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3531/4010748112_80bf4dbc5e.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;6. Robert Downey Jr.: Honestly, first movie I saw him in and really sat up and took notice was Iron Man.  I subsequently doubled back and watched everything I could get my hands on.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2661/4010751160_4e15feb9e1.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;5. Jared Leto: Knew him first as "the guy playing Alexander the Great's boyfriend" and then I hunted down everything from Fight Club to Requiem for a Dream.  And then I found out he had &lt;a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/30_seconds_to_mars"&gt;a band&lt;/a&gt;; three concerts in four years, God bless Chicago.  But don't forget about VA when the new album comes out, okay bb?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2480/4009986413_685af2f917.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. Chris Pine: Because who doesn't want to bang Captain Kirk?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2533/4009981881_e63e7349c1.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. Ed Westwick: My LJ has largely escaped unscathed from my Gossip Girl addiction, but no longer!  &lt;a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipCBIw-dtPU&amp;amp;feature=related"&gt;I could listen to this boy read the phonebook&lt;/a&gt;.  In bed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2666/4010756552_97891eefa6.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. Karl Urban: because I saw him first in LotR, but I loved him (war mullet and all) in Chronicles of Riddick.  I own Doom, people.  'Nuff said.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2486/4009979091_74c49afaeb.jpg" /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1. Viggo Mortensen: Man was my first real celebrity crush so he has to be number 1.  He's an actor/poet/artist/professional badass.  I'd hit that so hard, whoever could pull me out would be the king of England.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:180525</id>
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    <title>it is not what you want, but it is what you chase...</title>
    <published>2009-10-13T04:38:40Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-13T04:38:40Z</updated>
    <category term="this is a small post"/>
    <category term="music pimp"/>
    <lj:music>cake bake betty - the spine song</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I have to post this because godDAMN this song snuck up on me tonight and I can't stop listening to it.  It's the stuff whitetext is made of and just...Listen to it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/hsu6exkqe8"&gt;Cake Bake Betty - The Spine Song&lt;/a&gt; : (and you're down/for the count/you are dancing with men/going around and around/and you're scared/and you're sure/that your spine will dissolve/you will fall to the floor/you will take/what you need/and the headaches will come/but at least you can breathe)</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:180313</id>
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    <title>all alone in an empty room...</title>
    <published>2009-10-12T02:54:54Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-12T02:55:38Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="movies"/>
    <lj:music>low shoulder - through the trees</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I finally saw Jennifer's Body on Friday night.  I went in expecting popcorn harmless fare and came out both more amused, scared and meta than I ever anticipated.  It is (to steal my friend Jaci's description) like Mean Girls meets Ginger Snaps with a dash of The Exorcist.  Go see it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Also, because this looks like a fun meme: &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;b&gt;A. Has my portrayal of a character(s) changed the way you think of him/her?&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;b&gt;B. Pick one of my characters and I'll answer the following questions about him or her (to the best of my ability, with the understanding that if the character just looks at me, that's the answer you're getting).&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    1. What would your character kill for? What would they die for?&lt;br /&gt;    2. What would they refuse to do under any circumstances? Why?&lt;br /&gt;    3. What do they dream about?&lt;br /&gt;    4. What's their biggest fear?&lt;br /&gt;    5. What single object would they be most hard pressed to part with? Why?&lt;br /&gt;    6. What is their fondest memory?&lt;br /&gt;    7. What is their worst memory?&lt;br /&gt;    8. What or who was their most significant influence? Expound.&lt;br /&gt;    9. What do they believe makes a successful life?&lt;br /&gt;    10. What makes them laugh?&lt;br /&gt;    11. What are their religious views?&lt;br /&gt;    12. What is their greatest strength?&lt;br /&gt;    13. Do they have a fatal flaw? If so, what is it?&lt;br /&gt;    14. Who is the most important person in their life?&lt;br /&gt;    15. If they died, who would miss them most? How would they die?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;b&gt;C. Pick a fandom, any fandom I'm in. I will tell you some stuff that may involve canon ships, fanon ships, fanon trends, and whether or not I think things jumped the shark or went absolutely nuts, or where I myself stopped watching and why!&lt;/b&gt;</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:180086</id>
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    <title>this is a promise with a catch...</title>
    <published>2009-10-05T05:31:04Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-05T05:31:04Z</updated>
    <category term="lucidity"/>
    <category term="srs writer"/>
    <lj:music>matthew good - true love will find you in the end</lj:music>
    <content type="html">This is all Rog's fault, one hundred percent.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;last ones of our kind&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The door must not have shut all the way.  It's the only explanation.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She sees Rizza off and then opens the door to go home, but she steps through before she realizes it's wrong and the door shuts behind her with an awful click.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rizza is only a few steps in front of her; he turns and his eyes are very wide.  As one, they lunge for the door, knowing before they open it that the bar won't be there.  Rizza doesn't hesitate.  "Come with me."  He catches her by the wrist, leads her down the hall and into a room--a supply closet.  He starts tossing bits of clothing at her, all in faded brown and sickly yellow; she lets them collect at her feet while she strips down.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She puts her vest back on first--backwards--and laces it as tight as she can stand.  It's not perfect, but with baggy clothes layered on top, it's better than nothing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kite tugs the pins from her hair, gathering most of it back in a ponytail and brushing the rest into her face.  It isn't quite enough, but people will see what they expect to see, and that is certainly not a woman here.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rizza eyes her critically.  "Stay close to me.  Stay quiet.  And one more thing."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He punches her square in the mouth.  She lunges at him, spitting and furious.  He sidesteps and doesn't quite smile, fingers brushing her newly split lip.  "Nobody will believe you're with me without it."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr&gt;&lt;br /&gt;'Temporary transfer' is their cover story; she doesn't ask how he gets the guards to play along.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The first time they step out into the yard, she attaches herself to Rizza like a shadow, watching inmates watching her through her hair.  Someone's hand grazes her hip; she flinches, stumbles and bumps into Rizza, then flinches again.  There's a ripple of laughter.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nervous little thing, isn't he?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I'll have to see if I can get him to relax," Rizza replies, cupping the back of her head with one hand.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She twists into and away from the touch at the same time.  "Time to get the lay of the land, hm?"  He heads for the stairs and after a calculated hesitation, she rushes to catch up.  When he closes the cell door behind them, she stretches, shaking out her limbs.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rizza studies her carefully.  "You're awfully good at that."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She doesn't quite smile.  "I spend a lot of time with actors and whores.  I picked up a thing or two about giving a performance."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr&gt;&lt;br /&gt;They go down to the mess hall for dinner; she steals bites off his tray while he talks to other people.  Afterward, it's back to the yard for cards and hushed conversations; she leans against him, drowsing, and he lets her, sometimes reaching up to cradle her head, pulling it closer against him in a way that feels practiced.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;An alarm goes off, a signal, and everyone starts shuffling back to their cells.  Rizza gathers his cards.  On the way to the stairs, someone cuts between them, and when the way clears, she can't see Rizza anywhere.  The first one comes from behind and to the left.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There are knives in her clothes but she doesn't dare use them.  If she uses them, she will kill somebody and if she kills somebody, she won't be able to just slip out of here when a door presents itself.  They'll trap her and keep her, stone walls all her days and not even her mother's view of the sky.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She fights with a little more finesse than they're used to.  She thinks she can hear bets being placed; everywhere she goes, she's always in the Lower City.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She takes a hit to the kidneys, a backhand across the face.  She doesn't think her nose is broken, only bleeding.  Someone goes for her knees, but she knows that trick--jumps, twists, kicks him hard in the ear.  She's swinging for her next opponent when suddenly there is no one and she can see what comes next: the guards and a locked door and worse if they find her out--&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But the one everyone clears a path for is Rizza.  He walks right up to her, stopping a hairsbreadth away.  She slumps, forehead resting against his chest.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You alright?" he asks, so soft she nearly misses it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Yeah."  Before she finishes the word, his hand closes at the juncture of neck and shoulder.  He hauls her up the stairs and she stumbles after, pulling against his grip in a way that almost isn't feigned. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He shoves her into his cell and shuts the door behind her.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Rizza!"  The door won't open.  "&lt;i&gt;Rizza&lt;/i&gt;!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Another cell in another tower; even in this world, they know where she belongs.  She curls up in the far corner, knees to her chest, and waits.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She doesn't remember falling asleep. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Someone touches her cheek and she has a knife at their throat before she is fully awake.  Rizza keeps still until her vision clears; when she puts the knife away, she doesn't apologize.  He touches the blood on her face, but it's long since dried.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You take care of it?" she asks.  "Or am I gonna have to stay in here until you find the door?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I took care of it." &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;For the first time, she notices there is more blood than hers on his shirt.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Was that a test?  Leaving me in the open?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"No." &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She can't tell if he's lying.  She decides she doesn't really want to know.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He stands and she lets him pull her up after.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When his fingers reach for the hem of her shirt, she raises her arms.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When he reaches for &lt;i&gt;her&lt;/i&gt;, she makes it a fight, because this should not be easy.  She bloodies his lip.  His hands find the places that haven't yet become bruises, bearing down until she hisses through her teeth.  He pulls her toward him, but she sees to it that he hits the bed first.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;They sleep tangled and twined, with her knives under the pillow.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In the morning, he helps her dress with the same precision; last night in reverse.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When the cell door leads back to the bar, they wear matching expressions of disappointment.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:179924</id>
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    <title>i will do what you ask me to do, because of how i feel about you...</title>
    <published>2009-10-04T02:34:11Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-04T02:34:11Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <category term="end of an era"/>
    <category term="live long and prosper"/>
    <lj:music>the mountain goads - genesis 30:3</lj:music>
    <content type="html">This is what happens when I don't stay caught up on my internet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(Also, if you haven't been following &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_st_xi_kink' lj:user='st_xi_kink' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif' alt='[info]' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;st_xi_kink&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt; religiously, this post may have no meaning for you, so feel free to scroll.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Two days ago, the great &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_st_anon' lj:user='st_anon' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://st-anon.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://st-anon.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;st_anon&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt; announced she would be closing the Star Trek XI Kink Meme.  I completely understand her reasons and the fact that she's kept up with this juggernaut since May is astounding to me.  Still, it's the end of an era, and the end of an era deserves to be commemorated.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I had planned on making this post on Star Trek Day (November 17th), but today seems more appropriate.  Under the cut are the six things I wrote for the kink meme.  Please heed all warnings.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/1886.html?thread=2187102#t2187102"&gt;in the dark&lt;/a&gt; (kirk/mccoy)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/2494.html?thread=5341886#t5341886"&gt;reach out and touch faith&lt;/a&gt; (nero/chekov; &lt;b&gt;warnings&lt;/b&gt; for dubcon, knifeplay)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/4104.html?thread=9777928#t9777928"&gt;raised by wolves&lt;/a&gt; (nero/kirk, kirk/mccoy; &lt;b&gt;warnings&lt;/b&gt; for attempted rape, dubcon)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/4532.html?thread=11352500#t11352500"&gt;things you think at times like these&lt;/a&gt; (girl!nero/kirk; &lt;b&gt;warning&lt;/b&gt; for noncon)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/7586.html?thread=18878114#t18878114"&gt;what chain reaction&lt;/a&gt; (kirk/mccoy; also available de-anon'd &lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/kirk_mccoy/450998.html"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt;)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink/7586.html?thread=18589090#t18589090"&gt;the war in your head&lt;/a&gt; (omc/mccoy, kirk/mccoy; &lt;b&gt;warning&lt;/b&gt; for noncon)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have two more prompts in progress, and I am plotting sequels to "raised by wolves" and "what chain reaction."  They'll go up on the new home for ST kink, &lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_st_xi_kink_meme' lj:user='st_xi_kink_meme' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink_meme/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif' alt='[info]' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/st_xi_kink_meme/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;st_xi_kink_meme&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;  The sequels will be de-anon'd, but I'm going back undercover for the rest I think.  What can I say?  Anonymity is like a warm, sexy blanket.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:179458</id>
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    <title>well done, sycophants!</title>
    <published>2009-10-03T03:04:59Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-03T03:23:43Z</updated>
    <category term="youtube"/>
    <content type="html">ROOOOOOOOOOG!  (And everyone else who likes Mad Men!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;MAD MEN WITH MUPPETS&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;lj-embed id="10" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My day.  So made.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:179344</id>
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    <title>cross the room to me...</title>
    <published>2009-09-27T02:15:52Z</published>
    <updated>2009-09-27T02:15:52Z</updated>
    <category term="music pimp"/>
    <lj:music>missy higgins - hold me tight</lj:music>
    <content type="html">As I'm moving down my to do list, MUSIC PIMP TIME.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/u6qysugzdz"&gt;Florence and the Machines - Blinding&lt;/a&gt; : flailed about this one a while ago, but here it is for your DLing pleasure.  &lt;i&gt;(seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state/a tourist in the waking world, never quite awake)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.sendspace.com/file/rbl4oa"&gt;Bat for Lashes - Use Somebody (Kings of Leon cover)&lt;/a&gt; : because I loved the original so much, I thought it couldn't get better.  and then there was this.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/y9ryqskgo3"&gt;Delta Goodrem - Mistaken Identity&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(I was always walking one step ahead/or so I thought until the monster crawled into my bed/rewind and erase that shocked look on your face/cause your mona lisa is dead)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.sendspace.com/file/3ntg4i"&gt;Missy Higgins - Hold Me Tight&lt;/a&gt; : &lt;i&gt;(hold me tight/cause I'm losing all the energy to fight/yeah hold me tight/I've been throwing pointless flares into your night)&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.box.net/shared/ymfug2z1av"&gt;The Mountain Goats - Thank You Mario But Our Princess Is In Another Castle&lt;/a&gt; : the title alone is amazing, but the song is fantastic.  &lt;i&gt;(I kept my hat on just for luck/sang simple tunes the whole night through/I wondered if I'd wake to find myself in flames/as I waited here for you/yeah when you came in/I could breathe again)&lt;/i&gt;</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:179106</id>
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    <title>yesterday's girl is not what you see...</title>
    <published>2009-09-25T02:30:22Z</published>
    <updated>2009-09-25T02:30:22Z</updated>
    <category term="y r u afk"/>
    <category term="gainfully employed"/>
    <category term="real life"/>
    <lj:music>delta goodrem - mistaken identity</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Who has two thumbs and finished her epic work project of DOOM today?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;THIS GIRL, THAT'S MOTHERFUCKING WHO.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There will be music pimps!  And tags, SO MANY TAGS.  And also a break for XBox at some point.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am working from home tomorrow.  The joy that fills me with cannot be measured.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:178708</id>
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    <title>just another candle chasing a spark...</title>
    <published>2009-09-21T02:31:32Z</published>
    <updated>2009-09-21T02:33:36Z</updated>
    <category term="eyes of texas"/>
    <category term="y r u afk"/>
    <category term="gainfully employed"/>
    <category term="real life"/>
    <lj:music>the fratellis - stragglers moon</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Good news: ubermassive work project of DOOM is now not due until Thursday morning.  :D&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Bad news: I had banked on it being due Tuesday morning, even coming up with a crazy cool plan to stay up all night Monday with the power of caffeine and then crash Tuesday afternoon, followed by celebratory Halo 3: ODST and entrance posts.  D:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This means I'm still gonna be a little spazzy on the internets for most of this week, kids, but I'll be keeping up with my slowtimes as best I can.  YOU ALL ROCK FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Best news: Texas beat Texas Tech last night.  HOOK 'EM, HORNS!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Also, those of you still waiting on drabblets from the previous meme, I have not forgotten you!  Working on those will keep me sane when I wish to froth at the mouth in my cubical.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:178438</id>
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    <title>but I don't really want you to stop and you know it so it doesn't stop you...</title>
    <published>2009-09-16T03:12:21Z</published>
    <updated>2009-09-16T03:12:21Z</updated>
    <category term="meme"/>
    <lj:music>snow patrol - crack the shutters</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Because you can never have too much meme in your diet:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;Ask me about a pairing I have written (or haven't and you think I should write) and I will give you five facts about them or a ficlet or a song that is CLEARLY THEIR SONG or what they order from the Chinese place down the street, etc, etc.&lt;/i&gt;</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:walksbyherself:178228</id>
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    <title>i'll be your girl backstage at your show...</title>
    <published>2009-09-14T03:56:10Z</published>
    <updated>2009-09-14T03:56:28Z</updated>
    <category term="layout"/>
    <category term="photoshop"/>
    <lj:music>lady gaga - paparazzi</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Was feeling inspired tonight, so I redid my layout.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span class='ljuser ljuser-name_walksbyherself' lj:user='walksbyherself' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://walksbyherself.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://walksbyherself.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;walksbyherself&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;:D?</content>
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